It’s the little things in life # 1

OK wow. J-just wow. This made me laugh uncontrollably. The guy in the Barney suit and the production crew must have been dying.

It’s the little things in life

I’m going to be posting from time to time, things that make me smile, laugh, or generally feel good. It could be something I see when I’m out, something that happens to me, or something I stumble upon when I surf the web. So get ready.

Return

It’s been a while, WordPress. I’m sorry I ever left you for Tumblr. But what can I say, it’s attractive, and has some features you don’t. It’s Twitter integration is orgasmic, the style of its posts is sensational, and the people who use it are savvy. But, it’s not for me. Well, I shouldn’t say that. I’m keeping my Tumblr account, and put up a Widget so that my posts will appear on this blog. Additionally, I will be posting my WordPress posts on my Tumblr Account. The main reason that I went back to WordPress is that there is more flexibility in terms of blogging your thoughts, and not just images you have come across and want to share. Additionally, sometime you want to give your opinion on a picture, video, or link, and Tumblr isn’t really designed for your opinion in that sense. WordPress is for the outspoken, and Tumblr is for those who like to share.

But enough about that.

What have I been up to? Writing. I’ve put The Emissaries on hold because frankly, I’m sick of what Twilight has done to vampires. More on that later. Anyway I’m back on WordPress, so tonight, make a toast to that.

That curse named love

A guy is sitting on some porch steps with his girl. They’ve been going out for a while, and he’s really into her. He looks at her and she stares back. He takes a breath as if to brace himself to what he plans on saying. She lifts her eyebrows as if expecting him to say something. He looks at her with an expression of mingled confusion and fear, and she knows now what three words are lingering at the tip of his tongue. Her excitement is evident, and he opens his mouth but finds the words stuck in his throat. After a minute he says “I…” and she leans forwards as if she wants to rip the rest of his sentence out of his mouth. “…I had a good time tonight. I think I’ll see you tomorrow.” He kisses her goodnight and walks back home, shaking his head. She sits there confuddled thinking why he couldn’t say three simple words. Boys are confusing, she thinks to herself, going back inside as she proceeds to text (and possibly call) her BFFs about what just happened for the rest of the night.

WHY is it so hard for us guys to just say, I LOVE YOU? Why? And why do girls find it so easy?

It’s just our nature ladies. Sorry. Actually, I’m not. Because if we were to say something like that on a whim like you do then the world would be a very different place right now.

Put it this way… it’s kind of like losing your virginity, girls. You don’t want to give it out to just anybody, but you know you have to do it eventually. Except that unlike the V-Card, the I-Love-You-Card can be reused.

You have to understand, it’s hard for a guy to be anchored down to one thing in any stage of his life, particularly because of the way boys are brought up these days. We have this macho image instilled on us, that doesn’t allow for feminine emotions. This makes us afraid when we do start develop feelings for a girl, and inept when we try to express them.

Another thing that a lot of women don’t realize is what’s going through our minds when we are on the verge of saying those big three words that kind of stick out. First of all, we’re debating whether these feelings are even real or not. I mean, do we really feel like we LOVE you? It’s a frightening emotion when you begin to rest your happiness on someone else. And most of the time we’re not even sure how you feel about us. The fear is another factor that restrains us from coming out with our feelings. Gambling poker chips and streaks across the park is one thing, but putting your heart on the line is quite another, even for guys.

Even though girls are ready to settle down, it’s a different thing for guys. You may call us scumbags ladies, but in reality guys are just not designed to handle these feelings on a whim.

There’s always exceptions of course, but while some guys are unmistakably assholes, a lot of us just aren’t ready to be anchored down, even if we really do like you, like some genetic inhibitor.

So the next time you think a guy is about to say something girls, don’t make him uncomfortable. Don’t egg him on, don’t lean in like you’re going to shake him, don’t seem angry, and don’t explicitly ask him if he was going to say I love you. Those are sure-fire ways to make sure he doesn’t say it, and if you’re pushy enough, cause him to reconsider you.

Heroes makes a comeback

After a weekend of drinking, bad decisions, and puking my guts out, Monday is a bittersweet day for me. I take my two and a half hour class at nine o clock in the morning, passing in and out of consciousness throughout the class due to staying up till four the night before, doing absolutely nothing. I take a small nap at noon, and then take my two o clock class and pass out again till nine, where I watch Heroes.

Heroes has been getting a lot of criticism since season two, with many people claiming that it will never be able to go back to what the first season was,and represented. And for the most part they’re right. Season one dealt with the everyday person discovering incredible, or in some cases, horrible abilities that brought out their true natures. Nothing can live up to the season one finale, with the heroes gathering up at Kirby Plaza in an attempt to stop the unstoppable Sylar. And no one can forget that feeling of relief when Nathan swooped down and saved the day, ending the season with an example of what a hero truly is.

But in my opinion, there’s another reason why Heroes has lost its glitter. Don’t get me wrong, I love Heroes, and except for the first half of the second season, I will defend that it is a great show. The real reason, I think, that Heroes doesn’t have the same ‘feel’ it had before was a change in the direction of the episodes. But last night brought back the directing that made Heroes a great show in season one.

I was sitting on my bed, watching Heroes with my roommate doing something on his computer while Danko shaved on the screen in the opening scene. I lean forward in excitement and whisper to my roommate “Dude, this is gonna be great episode, I can feel it.”

And I was totally right.

I forgot what made the direction in Heroes so great. It’s the subtleness of things. For example, the opening scene with Danko shaving. It’s nothing special. It’s just him shaving. But it’s what’s happening that made it good. While he was shaving, someone snuck into his house, tied up and unconscious 300+ pound man into his living room (who by the way, can control all of your motor functions), left, and only allowed themselves to be detected after he had already left.

Also, the layered subtleness of things. In the scene where we return to Hiro, Ando, and Matt Parkman Jr., it seems like they are just having a silly argument about what they are going to do about the predicament. But what’s really happening? Hiro opens up to his ‘childhood demons’ admitting what actually happened when he went back 16 years through time back in season three. All the while, Baby Matt Parkman is playing around with his powers, with the duo goggling at him open mouthed like a bunch of schoolboys finding the answers to all their tests for the rest of the year.

Subtleness, like the security camera gently pointing at the door so Tracy can free some prisoners and give the resistance firepower again. And her last frozen tear sliding down her cheek after she gave her life to save the child of a sister she never met, redeeming herself after caring only for herself throughout her whole run on the show.

Subtleness, like talking about the weather when you’re really talking about the persecution of evolved humans across the United States. Oh Heroes, you never fail to disappoint.

Changing Gears

Haven’t blogged in a while. Feels good to be typing again. Although I have been blogging on Myspace a little. I’ll see if I can hopefully import those along with my Blogger Chapin Design 101. I’m hoping on blogging a lot more, and I’m being sincere this time lol. Did you guys miss me? I sure missed you. Are you even interested in me anymore? Are you reading? Comment me every once in a while. Let me know if you exist so that I know that I exist. Make sense? Love ya guys.

The Emissaries and Twitter

Surprise! I have a big project I’m cultivating right now! Live-action fun! If you’re in the Bloomfield New Jersey are this summer, please let me know if you want to be a part of this! If you want to act, help film, or with lighting, we need all the help we can get, so please contact me. I’m finishing up the scripts now, and I’m not one to brag much, but it is looking very promising and I’m not the only one who says so =) The episodes are going to be around 10 minutes long, and they will be posted up on YouTube/ Also watch my video here: Click Here! It’s a casting call video I posted on YouTube, and it has more contact info there.

Also, I recently opened a Twitter account! For those of you who don’t know, Twitter is a micro blogging tool that helps people communicate and stay in touch with one another. For those of you with a Facebook or MySpace, think of it as a status update you can do from anywhere, even from you phone. You can even snap pictures from your phone and post them up there. I think it’s not as popular as it’s destined to be, so go get one, so you can say you didn’t join the bandwagon.

Broccoli89

That’s my Twitter account. Make one yourself, and follow me!

chapinator89@yahoo.com is my email…contact me if you are interested in participating in ‘The Emissaries’!

Back

Wow. It’s been a year since I was last on this thing. And a LOT has happened since then. Am I still the same person who created this blog way back in September 2007? I think not. But I’m not saying I’ve changed in a bad way. I’ve learned a lot…and I’m ready to share.

I’m now a sophomore here at Quinnipiac University, and I must say I’m having a much better time this year. I’m more confident, more outgoing and willing to take risks in the name of fun. But anyway let’s get to it…love. Last time I was here I was still head over heels for this girl (or should I say woman) Ana Monzon. What can I say, she’s an amazing person! Not many women have the delicate balance of beauty and intellect like she does. She’s compassionate, emphatic individual who I couldn’t help but fall in love with. But it wasn’t meant to be, and now, looking back at it, maybe it’s for the best. We still talk of course, and I consider who my closest friend. There’s no other way to describe her other than simply an angel. She’s really been there when I need someone the most and for that, I know she’s a true blue friend.

So I found someone else. Or at least I thought I did. She was in high school (first mistake). But, in all honesty, it was great. Her name was Kristian, but I call her Kris, or sometimes Kristiana. She was beautiful, and in the beginning it was really nice. We both really liked each other and we fed off each others affections. But then she became distant, detached, and it all went downhill from there. I decided to try and take a break around September but we ended up back together a week later. Things were actually patching up nicely until my birthday, when she told me she had been cheating on me for four months, with a guy I had always been suspicious of.

So now, single yet again, I realize that that whole experience did make me stronger. I’m not going to deny that we had our good times, but I guess it wasn’t meant to be. I know she is hurting as well as I am, but I think she feels the sting more. After we broke up she confessed that she had her doubts about me, perhaps in an attempt to have me tell her if I was ever unfaithful. And I wasn’t. Simple as that. She was, several times, and although it hurt me to find out, I was able to achieve inner peace knowing that I did nothing wrong. In fact, throughout our relationship, whenever we had an argument, she would always avoid the issue, refusing to resolve anything. I’m not the perfect boyfriend, but then again, perfection is an illusion. The more perfect someone seems, the bigger the flaw they are hiding. I’m not usually jealous, but how would anyone react to their girlfriend telling them that she is hanging out with the person she thinks would make the better boyfriend. I knew going into the relationship that long distance would be difficult, but I never used it as an excuse to try and be unfaithful.

And now alone again, I find myself longing for her again. But when I think about it, it’s not that I actually miss her, I miss that security of being in a relationship. It’s that fear of being alone for the rest of my life that drives me towards her. But, I’m a stronger person now, and I’m able to overcome that fear knowing that the right person is out there for me. Until then, why not just enjoy my youth and explore my options? You only live once.

NEW STORY

I apologize for not posting in so long, I’m going to try and make my posts more frequents form now on.

So as you may or may not know, I am quite the creative outlet when it comes to stories. I like to make up new story lines all the time and also make some fan fiction about certain shows I like, however I haven’t done that in a long time.

At any rate, a long time ago I came up for an idea of a futuristic version of King Arthur, to reintroduce the legend to the new generation in a fun way. However I quickly grew bored of the idea so i tossed it away. So a few weeks ago I remembered that story when I sketched a new character. I came back to it and took back the theme, settings, and concepts of the first storyline and reincorporated it into a completely new, original story. I am quite pleased with it and am happy to say that it will become an ongoing project. I’m coming up with the characters now, and I’m jotting down they re personalities and roles in the stories first, before actually sketching them out. I have a few sketches that I’ll post up later, but for the most part right now you’ll just have to sit tight.

Here are some teasers though…

It IS a sort of hybrid mix of time lines. While the use of advanced technology will be witnessed, there will be old time concepts included such as castles and ruling monarchies.

Expect a lot of sword fighting, I have an exciting new form of swordsmanship that’ll be radical.

I plan to to incorporate Excalibur(or a similarly fashioned sword) into the story, and it will be a major plot device as the story goes on.

Magic will be present, and I plan to create memorable fights between expert swordsmen and combat magicians. I’m trying to come up with new ways that magic can be used and manipulated in battle, while still keeping the fights electric and dramatic. I plan to have everything get to the point though, I’m not going to make it like a hundred page Dragon Ball Z fight.

Family feuds GALORE! The major plot of the story will revolve around treachery brought forth before the current timeline of the story begins.

Identity will be a big character point in the series. Identity crisis’s, as well as questions as to what identity is and what defines a person’s identity will asked when we witness certain characters inner turmoil.

That’s all I can tell you for now folks, if you want more, you’ll just have to wait. I promise the next post in regards to this will include sketches!

On family and friends

And now as you have all been eagerly awaiting, the official author of this blog, Jeff, is here. First of all I’d like to say that I’m REALLY EXCITED TO BE WRITING THIS BLOG. Finally a chance to put all my ideas down along with my artwork. I really should have started this years ago, but there’s no use crying over spilt milk. Or a more accurate term would be milk that was never served in the first place. But on to today’s blog, I’d like to introduce two aspects of my life that were explored in the last blog but not really uncovered much or explained in depth. First of all I’d like to introduce my family and friends so let’s commence shall we?

I can’t start the introductions with anyone else other than my parents can I? They brought me into this world, and fortunately for me they cant take me out. They have done more for me than I can ever explain in one blog, but I just want to say that they are my idols and have the biggest hearts I have ever seen in my life.

My incredible grandmother!! Or as I call her, MAMA. She’s the BEST grandma in the world and I wish she was here right now but she’s in Guatemala right now…but she’s coming back in November so it’s all good. Also I think it unfair that i didn’t inherit her eyes or hair color. What the f*ck.

Of course, I have to give credit my brother here, Anthony, he drives me insane but in many ways keeps me sane at the same time. Thanks to him I am not devoid of my inner child. But in all seriousness he’s the best little brother in the entire world and o wouldn’t trade him for anything else. Even though I tell him I would anytime, I’m kidding, but don’t tell him.

Oh man, how can I write about family WITHOUT including this crazy SOB….haaha just kidding but for real this kids more than a cousin to me he’s like another brother. Good times man, good times….oh, and in case you’re reading this Ed, *THE GOAT!* haha gotcha bitch.

My dear cousin Wendy….what can I say? She’s always been there for me, whether it’s helping me out with something or giving me advice, but I know she’s always there for me.

Oooh Nancy whatever am I going to do with you, haha but seriously she’s the best and I know she always has my back. If I ever needed a tag team partner in a wrestling match I’d definitely choose her. No joke. But she’s also incredibly sweet most of the time so don’t misjudge me.

Honestly this blog would be incomplete if I didn’t mention this angel that I have been blessed with. Oh, my Ana Banana, I honestly don’t know what my life would be like without you, you’ve done more for me then I think you even know. She’s been my best friend for four years and I love her with all of my heart. Seriously though, she’s so far away and we still manage to find time for each other. She has always been there for me when the going gets rough and I have always been there for her. Ana whether you know it or not you are the best thing that ever could have happened to me and I’m glad that we met. I’m in love with you and you probably don’t know it, but hopefully I’ll tell you one day.

My boy Dre! Man this kid is my brother from another mother…we’ve been through some pretty crazy times together and I know there’s gonna be more. Known him since eighth grade playing Yu-Gi-Oh and such(always beat him hehe). Nah but this guy’s always got my back and he knows I’ve got his…if not just ask him about So Ho haha. “Ayo, run yo pockets nigga.” (inside joke, crazy times man) So you want to see some real Guyanese artistic talent sniff this guy out I promise you won’t be disappointed.

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